It’s a piece of cake (without thinking)

  Once upon a time, I was. And I wanted to practise a backflip. So I stood and prepared for  take off silently repeating the few simple steps, which I should perform for successful backflip. ‚Jump, arms, head, tuck, land... Jump, arms, head, tuck, land...‘ And I wanted to do so. Only this, nothing else. Here it goes. My knees are slightly bending, snowflakes are falling all around me creating so peaceful night. Only few lamps are shining with their yellow light. Noone is around me, except some crazy dog-walkers with little freezing dogs. Knees are getting straight as the muslces are springing me off the ground. Arms are going up, head‘s going a little backwards.

  Then I notice, that this all isn’t everything I know about. Something in my head wakes up and strikes like lightning: ‚Ouu, I’m gonna fall as always!‘ What the heck?? My body is getting mad and guess what? Ou yea, I fell down like the frozen dog would do, if you thorwn it. ‚Shiiit!!‘ I screamed. My mind wanted to have the last word, as always. One thought and this happend - Again.

  After it, I was a little disappointed, but I already knew this type of failure, so I knew, what to do. I just stood up again and did it again. It went perfectly. Jump, arms, head, tuck, land. Bingo. No agressive thoughts anymore. But what is this??  I know, I can do it, but mind thinks different.

‚Heey, nice frontflipping spot!‘ – ‚Good, chance for breaking your neck‘

‚Let’s do some back tucks.‘ – ‚ Do you really wanna fall on your head?‘

Yea, it’s me and the mind. It looks like shchizophrenia... But hopefully, it can be shutted down and I believe there is not only one way how to do it. First way is the way of ‚JUST DOING IT.‘ Forget all, just do what you have to do. No space for a single thought. No thought = no distraction = staying concetraded.

From now, I’m focusing more on this issue. Stopping my thoughts. Await further updates.